Today, the Brothers went to Dimesse Retreat Centre and Mwangaza to spend the day in quiet reflection on the material that they received over the previous four weeks. This time of integration focused on the idea of transformation that often occurs in the darkness and silence of one’s heart. By way of help to deepen their reflection, the Brothers were given a page which focused on this idea of transformation. Part of the page is reproduced below.
The most significant events in the life of Jesus, – his birth, his arrest, his death, his resurrection – all took place in darkness….sometimes darkness yields the most extraordinary events.
Everything incubates in darkness. Whenever new life grows and emerges darkness is crucial to the process. Whether it’s the caterpillar in the chrysalis, the seed in the ground, the child in the womb, the True Self in the soul, there’s always a time of waiting in the dark. Jesus told us that we have to be born again, but for that to happen there must be a period incubating in darkness during which we are receiving a loving call from God to move into a wider and deeper dimension of the spiritual life. Old religious acts no longer bring the consolation they once did. Former patterns and selves feel like outgrown sweaters.
- What newness is God calling me towards?
- What are the patterns that need to be shed so that my true Self can emerge?
- What are the wounds that need to be healed?
- What is coming to birth in me?
Transformation time is a time for nourishing soul, the deepest part of my self, the dwelling place of the divine within. How am I nourishing my soul?
“I beg you ….to be patient with all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves like locked rooms and like books that are written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without then noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer.” (Rainer Maria Rilke)
Name two big questions from each module you are currently living with. Write these questions down in your journal and allow them to sink down deep into your heart.
What does it feel like to be living with questions for which you do not have answers?
Transformation time involves sitting in the dark with unanswered questions. Is it possible for you to do this?